You are the Most Merciful of those who show mercy! (7.151, 21.83)
You have given me so much
I am shy to ask for more
but then I remember that You have said, as related to us by Your beloved (upon him blessings and peace!):
“O My servants, were the first of you and the last of you, the human of you and the jinn of you, to rise up in one place and make a request of Me, and were I to give everyone what he requested, that would not decrease what I have, any more than a needle decreases the sea if put into it.”
and so I ask
I ask the way that You taught us to ask
knowing that only You can give
or withhold
I do not know what is best for me
but I know what my heart asks for even when my lips do not move
I have always known
I just wasn’t strong enough yet to embrace it
but now You have covered over my weakness with Your strength
and You send me subtle whispers and clear signs
that have changed my life
like the dream I had last night
a dream that I will never forget
for Paradise never felt so close
and it was Paradise that wanted me
could it really be that I am desired just as I desire
that I am loved just as I love
that someone has been waiting for me
just as I have been waiting
and that my akwardness doesn’t matter
“believing I was unlovable. Which made no sense…because he told me there was someone loving me all those years.”
if it can be true for boys and girls in Brooklyn
bursting from one drop
then I am waiting
at the shore of Your sea
and You will always be
and always were
my source of hope
the Most Merciful of those who show mercy
A Mercy Case 
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