you have robbed me of the solace of nature
the trees speak of your absence
while the sky hints at something more
everything is better
when i feel your warmth
but nothing can fill the void
when i am left wondering
how am i to survive in a universe
where your Love is not guaranteed
what peace can i find when
something i did or said or felt
perhaps even something i don’t remember
has led you to reconsider and pull away
i cannot even bear the thought
i die inside
over and over again
in the presence of just the idea
so what would i do
if ever faced with that reality
i have no strength
no beauty
no wealth
nothing smart or funny to say
i am desperate and needy
clinging to you
eternally and always
no where to which i can turn
no thing that could help
there is no getting over you
ever
so hope is my destiny
because what fear whispers in my heart
is too terrifying to ponder regularly
for even my life would not be mine to take
falsely believing i could end my own suffering
instead, i would remain
my heart breaking
forever, without end, forever
save me.
A Mercy Case 