i am still waiting at the shore of Your sea
and You have always been
and always will be
my source of hope
The Most Merciful of those who show mercy
how many sins i have done!
i know You forgive all sins except one
but have You forgiven my sins
that i do not know
they swirl around me like frightful demons
biting and gnashing and screaming
but You are Light
and can drive them all away
evaporated instantly with Your Love
i need that
i need that more than anything
i need that more than the air i breath
and the water i drink
which are also Your Mercy!
how can i ever love and fear You as You deserve to be loved and feared?!
i am utterly incapable of reaching the rank of being anything other than Your slave, with whom You will do what You will
i have no rights except the right you grant to me out of Your Justice and Your Mercy
i am simply a beggar and a pleader, clothed in the signs of Your Grace, fed by the manifestations of Your Kindness
You are sovereign over every human breath, of which mine are only a drop in the ocean
one day soon, i long to meet You, al-Raḥmān bi’l-ghayb
and i only ask that until that time, You bless me to sell myself – my body and everything i have – for You alone
stained by sin
all I have is a drink of water to give a thirsty dog
but most importantly
A Mercy Case 