Archive for July, 2008

the dark side

When I write and put it into public, it is usually the best I’ve got to offer. Not best in terms of style (I don’t even know if I am a “good” writer), but rather best in terms of spiritual clarity. When I write something that comes from a place of doubt, or anguish, or confusion, I usually keep it to myself.

I want to present myself as someone who has it all figured out, but I really don’t. I’m just trying my best (I hope). And to be honest, I’m afraid to let you see all of me. And more than that, I’m afraid to let what is inside me out into the world.

That’s why I called this blog, “A Mercy Case,” because I am in such need of Divine Mercy. We all are. We are drunkards, adulterers, embezzlers, fakes, liars, murderers, oppressors, rapists, atheists, hypocrites, slanderers. We sometimes want what is bad for us, and hate what is good for us. We break people’s hearts, consume more than we need, and reject good counsel. We think of ourselves all the time, narcissists at heart.

May the Merciful One cover over our faults, forgive us our weaknesses, and guide us to that which is best for us in this life and the next, ameen.

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In this moment

In this moment, be where Allah has placed you. Emigrate from the place of your heart full of doubt, and you will find that the next step is all that matters. What makes you think you will find Him on the other side of the ocean when He is with you at this very moment? Will you reach Him at the end of your journey, or is He with you before you even begin walking?

It matters far more where you are going then where you have been. If the last thousand steps have been in the wrong direction, don’t lose hope. You can always turn around. And if you misstep, then you can always regain your footing. In this moment, the next step is all that matters.

Don’t burden yourself with trying to plan it all out. Someone else already has it under control. Remember that the longest journeys only unfold one step at a time.

So where are you now, and what is your next step?

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